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Its been a long time, since I left you without strong rhyme too step to, Eric B and you know the other guy. Man, this has been an awesome journey that I have been on. I am at the half way mark and from day one God has been proving Himself too me time and time again. I don’t know where too start. This trip has never been about the children from day one, even though I thought that was the reason I was coming. God, has a way of letting us think that we are doing Him a favor by being obedient, then He body slams us ! There is a lot of junk that I have been carrying for a long time and little bit by little bit God has been shaving it off. In situations like this you only have one choice, well actually two, if you choose to be disobedient. My only prayer is that I want God too use me as a witness of what He can do, bring Him glory. I wanted to be another MLK, a voice crying in the wilderness. Self,past,Situations, circumstances, and people have caused me too make bad choices. The things that are coming to surface is amazing, and I am working through some stuff. I am starting o see if I am going too make this my life’s work their are some thing that are going to change. The main on is how I was raised, my instilled fear in me, it had nothing too do with LOVE. To quote Tina Turner ” Whats love got too do with it ” not a thing at all. I only ever knew was FEAR ! This been a hurtful discover, to know that I never really knew what real love was as a child. This is what I am learning here, how too show real love, love not based on conditions. It is a bitter pill too swallow. This the love that Jesus taught, oh how far have we strayed as parents, leaders,pastors, etc. I must confess that I was very immature, I am trying too grow up and be not just a man but, one who knows how too love. Pray for me that God will open heart surgery and I will allow Him cut out the old. Hugs and kisses to the Queen of my life, my mom, Barbara J.Shelby, good night all. Pray for Haiti !

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